Have you ever felt something tugging at your heart, like a relentless child that wants to go somewhere besides where you are? That pull, pull, pull on your sleeve? Maybe you actually wanted to go too but the conversation wouldn’t let up and you politely stayed while that little one of yours tugged and began to say, “c’mon mama lets go?”
That was me. That picture right there. Only the tugging and pulling was not my child. It was the Holy Spirit. I have felt God pulling at me to write and share and teach and tell, but I was caught up in the conversations, or the busyness of life. Some of which I was politely putting up with while looking for a way out. All the while the Holy Spirit was pulling at my sleeve. “Do this” He said. “It is my will for you” He said. “It is what I called you to do.”
NOT ABOUT ME
When I finally looked at this thing straight on, I realized why I didn’t respond as fast as I should have. I was scared! How could I teach or tell or share anything of God? Who am I? I come from a very sinful past and didn’t think anyone would want to hear anything I had to say! And I was right. All of that is about me. I was scared. My sinful past. What I had to share. This is not supposed to be about me at all! It is about Him and what He wants to share. It does not matter about where I’ve been or what I’ve done. He made me in His image. I am His and if He wants to use me to say something then He will.
DON’T MISS IT
Honestly, I am now more afraid of Him stopping the pull. Like when the child finally stops pulling on your sleeve because he has found someone else to play with. I might have been relieved for a moment but once the reality of that set in I would have been heart broken. He would have found someone else to write this. To tell you, my reader, to trust Him. To trust that that pull you are feeling is from Him and He has something great for you!
Have you ever felt that tug, or pull from the Holy Spirit? It starts out as a still small voice. Something in your heart that you almost barely hear through all the noise of life. It gets stronger and louder, but he really is a gentleman and not at all like the relentless child that I spoke of. He is not annoying or rude. He patiently waits for us to turn our face toward Him, to listen and then do. Do not procrastinate. Answer that! Nothing is worth putting it off for. Feel the fear, the anxiety, the emotions, and Go! He is right there with you.